Chapter 3: Amnesia Amongst
Company
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Yesterday was the first day of
the rest of your life, and you messed it up again - Patrick Murray
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I'm gonna keep catching that butterfly
In that dream of mine
I'm gonna keep catching that butterfly
In that dream of mine
In my lucid dreams
In my lucid dreams
Catching That Butterfly - The Verve
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Barely fifteen minutes later, the group was
making its way back
along the road Harry, Draco and Hermione had travelled earlier. Despite
their best efforts, the former two had been unable to deter their
friends from accompanying them home. From what they were made to
understand, it was a rare occasion when any evening out ended with a
parting at the restaurant. It had become a custom to return to one of
their flats for drinks and further socializing, and Harry and Draco had
the undesirable roles of hosts for the night.
The city looked quite different by night. During
the day it was
bathed in a cold sunshine, that illuminated the dust rising from the
roads and lit the streets with a yellowy glare. At night, though, the
only lights were harsh neon, and the brilliance of the streetlamps and
their artificial glow. There were lots of people around, many drunk,
some stoned, and a few both, and Harry counted twelve bars and
nightclubs on the way back to their flat.
He and Draco had been careful to keep up
pretences as they had
walked back home with the others. As soon as they had left the
restaurant, Ron and Lavender and Hermione and Sean had promptly begun
holding hands, and even Ginny and Seamus were getting on better. So as
not to arouse suspicion, Harry resumed his hold around Draco's waist,
and walked closely next to him all the way home. For his part Draco was
a good actor, and perfected the art of turning his body slightly
towards Harry, leaning into his shoulder and giving the impression of a
great intimacy between them.
Luckily for them, the distance of their friends
prevented any of
them noticing the slightly awkward silence between the two, which was
more difficult to overcome.
They arrived back at their flat by about eleven
'o' clock. Hermione
was giggling at something Sean had said, and the group practically
stumbled through the door and into the living room.
"Can I get anyone a drink?" Draco asked, moving
into the kitchen where he had noticed a bottle of wine beside the sink
earlier.
"Please," Ginny called before slumping on the
sofa with Hermione.
Harry sat on the other side of her, weary of the night, and hoping the
others wouldn't be staying too long.
"Music..." Ron was muttering, looking through the
CD rack, "can't do
anything without music." His fingers closed around a Turin Brakes album
and he shoved it into the player eagerly.
Draco, slipping smoothly into his character of
host, returned before
long with a bottle of red wine and some glasses which he had found in a
cupboard. Setting them on the glass coffee table, he realised that he
had nothing to open the wine with.
"Sit down, Draco," Ginny said, motioning for him
to take the seat
beside Harry. "I'll fetch a corkscrew." Draco sat down, a little
reluctantly, and prodded Harry, who was sitting with his eyes closed,
awake.
"What?" Harry asked.
"How long is this going to last?" Draco hissed.
"I'm not sure how long we can keep fooling them."
"I know," said Harry, "but I'm sure it won't be
much longer." Draco
sat back, unappeased, whilst Harry saw Ron's keen eyes trained upon
them. It was a minute before Ron voiced whatever it was that was on his
mind, though.
"Look," he said, with a slightly apologetic tone,
"I know you think
I love it when you do, but have you guys been fighting? You've seemed
really...cold with each other all evening."
Harry's insides were squirming unpleasantly.
"What do you mean?" he asked, feeling Draco shift
uncomfortably next to him.
"You've just been distant," Ron said with a
troubled expression,
"like you do after you've had a row." Harry privately wondered how
argumentative a pair they were, if everyone seemed so concerned about
the state of their relationship.
"Don't be silly," said Harry at once, "of course
we haven't."
"Well has something happened then?" Ron
persisted. "Only there is
definitely something different about the way you two have been behaving
towards each other. I mean usually you'd be all over each other after a
night out like this, but you've hardly spoken two words."
"There's nothing wrong," Harry insisted. "Is
there Draco?"
"No," Draco replied immediately, "of course not."
As if to confirm
this, he slung one arm around Harry's neck and rested his head against
him. It was a tentative gesture, but one that Harry welcomed, if only
for the purpose of assuaging Ron's concerns.
Ron did not look convinced, but turned away after
a moment to listen to something Lavender said.
"Are we really that transparent?" Harry asked
worriedly.
"Yeah, I'd say so," said Draco.
"What should we do?" replied Harry, looking over
to where Hermione
and Sean were laughing together, their hands on each other's knees,
stolen glances passing between them.
"I'm sure you can think of something,"
Draco said with a
smirk replacing his frown. Harry was taken aback for a moment as he
realised what Draco was suggesting. "I don't like this, Potter," Draco
said honestly, with an edge of bitterness, "mainly because I don't like
you. But I am more than keen to avoid yet further explanations and
embarrassment."
Harry sighed. "I don't think Hermione really
trusts anybody here,"
he said, "or she wouldn't be so reluctant about having us tell them who
we really are."
"I, for one, am inclined to trust her
instincts," Draco said
quickly, "especially if it narrows down the chance of Death Eaters
finding out about our now-feeble magical ability."
With an unpleasant sense of aversion, and well
aware that Ron kept
casting him anxious glances, Harry laid one hand hesitantly on Draco's
thigh. The blond looked surprised for a fleeting moment, before
responding flawlessly by nestling their faces together and running his
tongue the length of Harry's jaw.
Draco was a great actor, with the acquired knack
of making every
action look spontaneous and enjoyable. His hand was tightening around
Harry's shoulders, exerting a perfect pressure that made Harry's body
respond of its own accord.
Harry became rigid with the sensations bombarding
him from all
directions. The indescribable, searing feeling of such intimacy was
making him feel warm all over, and he was torn in two by conflicting
emotions.
His hand was moving of its own volition. It was
trailing up Draco's
torso, slowly massaging the young man's muscles, and feeling
involuntary jolts of pleasure run through him beneath Harry's touch.
His tongue was leaving Harry's throat and he was moving his mouth up to
meet the Gryffindor's, both of them closing their eyes, enveloping
themselves in darkness. There was a moment of sheer, blinding heat as
their lips duelled in another torrid kiss that stole the breath from
their lungs and all reason from their minds.
As they parted, they looked at each other.
"That might have done the trick," Harry gasped
into a whisper. Draco
half-smiled, his deep grey eyes soulful and fathomless. There was an
explosive shout of laughter from the other end of the room which drew
their attention. Seamus was pouring himself a third glass of wine and
telling jokes to Lavender, Sean and Hermione ,who were all seated
around him, listening intently.
"And then," he was saying, his words punctuated
by laughter, "he goes, "it was like that when I found it!""
They exploded into bouts of furious giggles again, pink-cheeked with
telltale glints in their eyes. Ginny and Ron were talking quietly in a
corner, and Harry could guess the subject of their discourse by the
dark looks Ron was throwing Seamus over Ginny's green silk shoulder.
After a moment or two she moved into the kitchen, and Ron came to sit
with Harry and Draco.
"Is she ok?" Harry asked, looking worriedly at
Ginny's small frame
leaning heavily against the kitchen counter. He had been pleasantly
surprised to see the change in Ginny. The bright-eyed beauty of youth
had changed into a defining elegance that gave her face a distinct
loveliness, despite her stubborn freckles and flaming red hair.
"I think so," Ron said unconvincingly. "She's
just a bit sensitive
on the subject of Seamus. He's been blowing hot and cold all night, and
she can't understand what it is he wants from her."
"I thought they'd broken up?" Harry said
tentatively. Ron gave him
an odd look that set immediate alarm bells ringing in Harry's ears.
"They have," he affirmed lightly, "but you know,
with everything
that happened two weeks ago, it's complicated." Harry hadn't a clue
what Ron was going on about, and didn't want to display his ignorance.
"She'll be ok," he said, in a brave attempt at
changing the subject to something less dangerous.
"I know," Ron said, looking away, "it's just,
she's my sister, you know? And Seamus is my friend. It's just hard."
*~*~*~*~*~*
Draco had passed the entire evening with people
he spent most of his
time avoiding. If someone had told him that he would one day be shacked
up with Harry Potter and wining and dining with Granger, the Weasleys,
Finnigan, Brown and a muggle, he would have had them shipped off to St.
Mungo's. As it was, he had had an alarmingly agreeable evening, and a
newfound admiration for Hermione was slowly but surely making itself
known within his mind.
Draco shuddered, what was coming over him? He
couldn't deny that
Hermione had changed, though. She had a new confidence, sophistication
and poise that came with finding her definition within the world. The
muggle wasn't too bad either. Draco still didn't understand the concept
of mobile phones, but accepted that they were a widely used,
fascinating device. He had spent a good ten minutes at the restaurant
exploring the phone's various functions, growing more and more amazed
by the lengths muggles had gone to in order to exist without magic.
Harry had been watching him with a slightly
amused expression, the
teasing reflection from the candle flickering in his jade eyes. They
had come to an unspoken agreement to postpone all hostility towards
each other until they managed to return to Hogwarts. At the restaurant,
united by a common lack of knowledge, they had been stranded together,
and Draco had found the experience vaguely exhilarating. Some part of
his brain was still refusing to contemplate the matter of their kisses,
unwilling to open the floodgates to a torrent of emotions he might be
unable to stem. All he knew was that in a world where he had the
mentality of a teenager, he was growing up way too fast, and there was
nothing to believe in any more.
It hadn't been hard to put his arm around Harry
and lick a blazing
path along his chin. His skin had tasted slightly salty, and Draco's
tongue had flicked over the angles and planes that made up that work of
art that was Harry. His adult self was strong and imposing, with an air
of great power and a sense of darkness that Draco was invariably drawn
to. He had watched Harry interact with his friends, watched him
laughing and talking, without he himself being excluded. For the first
time in his life, Draco had felt truly accepted, and even loved.
Weasley still eyed him circumspectly, but there was no hint of true
mistrust in his manner.
Of course, there were still the thousand things
he hated about
Harry. He hated the way the Gryffindor was simulating possessiveness
towards him, hated the way he inadvertently patronized him, how he
automatically assumed his role with little difficulty. Draco felt
disoriented and unsettled, merely by being in his own future, but if
Harry felt either of those things then he hid it very well.
He hated the way Harry was now talking with
Weasley, hated him for
being in his future, hated him for never leaving him alone. Wherever
Draco turned, there was Harry, and even eight years seemed insufficient
to sunder them. Now, though, he needed him to get home, and he hated
that too.
"I'm going to get a drink," he said rather
shortly, and pulled
himself from the sofa and from Harry's hands. Stalking towards the
kitchen he found Ginny still in there, sipping wine slowly, her blue
eyes staring into melancholy space.
"Hi," she said softly.
"Hi," he grunted in return, not feeling
particularly talkative now
that such a sullen mood had descended. He began opening various
cupboards, looking for some suitable source of alcohol, with little
luck.
"What are you looking for?" Ginny asked
quizzically.
"Something to drink," said Draco, thinking hard.
"I...er...can't
remember where Pott-Harry put it." He was stammering and he knew it.
Damn it, since when was talking so bloody difficult?
Ginny shot him a strange look before kneeling
down and pulling a bottle of vodka out of a drawer.
"This do you?" she asked, handing it to him.
Draco grabbed it
eagerly and unscrewed the cap. Tipping some down his throat and wincing
sharply he said,
"Perfect."
Ignoring Ginny, he made his way quietly out into
the bedroom and lay
on the bed. Further sips of vodka did wonders to numb his confusion and
assuage the general panic that seemed to increase with each passing
minute he spent here.
The bed was nice and comfortable, and Draco was
just drifting off to
sleep when he remembered that this was the bed he shared with Harry. He
and Harry had had sex - in this bed.
Getting off it as quickly as he could, Draco
groaned with the
realization and slumped in a chair instead. There were still sporadic
shouts of laughter coming from the other room, and Draco could hear
somebody turn the music up louder. The song 'Painkiller' drifted
through the walls to meet his ears and he rubbed his eyes. All he
wanted was a quiet life. Why did Harry always manage to fuck that up so
spectacularly for him?
Draco lost count of the minutes that passed while
he sat there. He
could catch snatches of conversation from the next room, and from what
he could glean, his 'friends' were becoming more and more intoxicated
as the evening wore on.
He could feel his eyelids growing heavy, it had
been one
motherfucker of a day. The vodka bottle looked at him kindly, and it
didn't register until some minutes later that bottles of spirits didn't
have eyes, or the ability to look at him at all.
Draco smiled to himself, not really knowing quite
why. All he knew
was that the chair was comfortable, the room was dark, he was
contentedly drunk and sleep was creeping over him like a warm tide.
Dawn couldn't have been too far off when Harry
stumbled into the room and towards Draco. Poking him awake he said,
"Ginny, Sean and Hermione are staying the night."
"Good-oh," Draco replied, yawning sleepily. "Why
are you telling me exactly?"
"Well," Harry didn't look sure, "it's your house
too," he finished lamely.
"Thanks Potter," Draco said, "just what I wanted
to be woken up for."
"You can't sleep there anyway," Harry said.
"You'll have terrible
backache in the morning. Look, you take the bed, I'll sleep..." He
looked at a loss, and Draco was momentarily conciliated.
"No, you take it," he said. "I'll sleep on the
sofa in the next
room." He went to get up and found himself swaying more than usual. It
must have been the alcohol, which also would seem to have prompted him
to give up the bed in favour of Potter. Harry caught him as he
looked as though he were about to fall and held his arm.
"You ok?" he asked worriedly. Draco shrugged him
off, embarrassed.
"Fine," he said grumpily, and Harry nodded. He
turned back to his
bed and pulled his shirt off in one fluid motion. Something in Draco's
mind told him that he should really leave now but he stood,
transfixed. The muscles of Harry's back rippled enticingly, in a way
that made Draco want to touch them more than anything else in the
world. The vodka dulling his senses was unable to shut out an
overwhelming attraction to the only slightly blurry figure slowly
undressing in front of him.
"Draco?" Harry had turned round and was looking
at him curiously.
"Are you going to watch me strip?" Draco was tempted to say yes, spank
Harry silly and tell him to get on with it, but some rational part of
his mind stopped him.
"You're ok, Potter, I'm not playing voyeur
tonight," he said, and stumbled inelegantly from the room.
*~*~*~*~*~*
The sofa next door turned out to be remarkably
comfortable. Draco
found a sable fur throw behind it and tossed it over himself for
warmth. Pulling off his black top, he went to sleep there, still
half-clothed and perfectly irritable.
His dreams were strange. Twisted fragments of
some long harboured
memories writhed in front of his eyes and he felt his body flinching in
reluctance to admit them. It was like reliving parts of his memories
over and over again, memories that Draco had no recollection of,
memories that his future self had, but he didn't.
He was younger now, quite possibly in his
seventh year at
Hogwarts, and he was standing beneath the stands on the Quidditch
pitch, watching absent-mindedly as Hufflepuff played Ravenclaw in the
penultimate game of the year.
Some part of him wondered vaguely why he
wasn't sitting with the
rest of the Slytherins, when that question was answered for him in the
form of someone breathing down the back of his neck. Draco's eyes
closed in a moment of bliss and his skin prickled with the glorious
sensation. He made to turn around but there were a pair of strong arms
holding him in place, inhibiting any movement, and the hard lines of a
boy's body pressed against his back.
"No. Don't turn around," it was Harry's voice,
spoken softly into
his ear. Draco quickly glanced around to make sure that none of the
five-hundred or so spectators could see them from their vantage points.
They were quite safe.
"Why not?" he asked.
"Because I need to talk to you," said Harry,
"and I can't do that if you're facing me." Draco narrowed his eyes
questioningly.
"You're not making sense, Potter," he said,
"but then, I wouldn't expect anything less."
"If you face me I'll be compelled to kiss you
and then we'll
never get anything done," Harry said honestly, and Draco felt his face
heat up.
"What did you want to talk about?"A slight
quiver tinted his voice.
"This morning,"
Draco felt his heart sink. "I thought we'd
sorted all this out," he said.
"No," Harry's voice was bitter, "you spoke and
expected me to listen. Now it's my turn."
"Speak then," Draco said at once.
"You told me this morning that after Hogwarts
things will never
be the same again," came Harry's voice. "You told me that you were
leaving the country, and you didn't even give me a word of explanation."
"What do you want from me?" he asked. "That is
what I plan to do
with my life, you have no place in it." The arms around him slackened
slightly, but Draco found himself leaning into Harry's embrace
instinctively. He could feel every hard etch of his body. He knew each
hollow so well. Had kissed every inch.
"I don't want to take over your life," Harry
said. "I have never asked you for anything like that."
"I don't want to hurt you," Draco heard
himself say, "but I am resolute."
"And so you should be," Harry said, "but I
know that deep in your soul, you do not want to never see me again."
"Of course I don't," Draco replied. "I'm just
saying that after
Hogwarts there will be a few years when I'll be travelling the world
alone, and you'll be here, studying to be an Auror. Our lives are going
in different directions, Potter, for a few years at least."
"And when you return?" Harry asked. "When I'm
finished training?"
"Then circumstances will dictate," Draco
replied firmly. "I don't
know what will happen, whether I'll return and you'll be happily
married, or whether I'll return and you'll be dead. Necrophilia never
was my thing."
He felt Harry smile.
"If circumstances are favourable," he said,
"will you still want me in the future?"
"I don't ever want to lose you completely,"
Draco said, an edge
to his voice. "My leaving the country for a while won't ensure that. In
a few years, we might be able to pick up where we left off."
"Do you want that?" Harry asked. "Do you want me?"
"Yes," Draco breathed, even though it cost him
a great deal.
"I can't do that, Malfoy," Harry replied, and
Draco stiffened
automatically. "I can't sit around for five years and wait for you on
the off-chance that you'll want to continue this." Draco was silent,
his breath snatched. Harry tightened his hold around him again. "Which
is why this will end when our time at Hogwarts does."
"You don't mean that," Draco said.
"Actually, I do," and Harry's voice sounded
like it was about to
shatter. "We'll come out of the next few years as different people, we
don't have a hope of..." he trailed off. The fears he professed were
the same as the ones nudging through to Draco's mind.
"You're right," he said heavily. "You're
always right."
"Which is why this must be the last time,"
Harry said bitterly,
and Draco turned suddenly to face him. Those emerald eyes had seen too
much, were shadowed with pain and grief, but Draco held their steady
gaze and ran his hands up Harry's muscled arms.
"The last time," he repeated and then thrust
his mouth against
Harry's with enough force to knock them both backwards and into the
wooden panel of the supports that held up the stands. Their tongues
battled furiously, and their kiss became a sequence of tasting, biting
and coaxing to draw an intense pleasure that drowned out everything
else.
Somewhere up above, there was an almighty
cheer as the Ravenclaw
seeker caught the snitch. The two seekers on the ground bit their way
again into each other's mouths, and brought the past six months to a
triumphant close.
The scene faded, and dissolved into a swirling
mass of grey that
stretched before Draco into every corner of space and time. New
recollections were coming to him, so splintered and broken so that it
was like listening to someone speak with a terrible stutter.
The air was hot and muggy. It hung about him
like some
palpable force, weighing down the breeze and fogging Draco's mind with
its sultriness. There were dark clouds scudding above him, heralding an
almighty downpour. Rain was pattering softly on the broad leaves of the
exotic plants that were surrounding him. He was in some kind of jungle
or forest, where birds chattered ceaselessly and the heady scents of
flowers made his mind swim.
This was a paradise he had no memory of, but a
strange stream of
knowledge was steadily permeating Draco's slumbering mind. He suddenly
knew the creatures he could hear. There were indris, their plaintive
notes tumbling eerily, and haunting the hills with echoes of their
song. There were coua-birds, chorusing their ringing cries, and the
gentle, plucked music of the vahina, the instruments of the villagers
below.
Draco was in Madagascar.
Some part of him knew this, just as some part
of him remembered
this journey, but for now he was content just to watch, and to follow
the steps he had once taken. The villagers were holding famadihana,
and dancing with the bones of their dead, an archaic practice that was
still held only in the more remote, secluded parts of the country.
He was being led somewhere, by a short, squat
native guide who
turned back to smile toothlessly at Draco as they walked. His shirt was
soaked through with sweat, the back of his neck sunburnt and raw, but
Draco was blissfully happy. They were climbing steep rocks, the cooling
rain splattering over his face. He tilted his chin towards the heavens
and opened his mouth; big, fat droplets of water fell upon him and he
tasted them as though they were the elixir of life itself.
The guide was motioning excitedly to a cave in
the mountainside,
and saying something in a tongue Draco's future self understood.
"Marina ve?" Draco was asking. Is it true?
Here was what he had spent so long searching for. He could scarcely
believe it.
The guide would continue no further, and was
pestering Draco to
do similar. Draco felt himself shake his head, and the guide sighed,
"Tena sahy ianao," he said. You are brave.
The Malagasy
was a beautiful language, that sounded like the speech of children,
their voices lightened by laughter. The man looked frightened, and
Draco felt himself hand over some coins before continuing alone. His
guide scurried down the mountain to be with his family in the village,
where the ombiasy, the medicine man, was handing out amulets
shaped like zebus and coua-birds.
Draco made for that cave, which was as vast as
a palace, dark
shadows yawning within, creating a place of fear and legend. The
villagers didn't come here. No-one did. The tales of it stalked through
their dreams and nightmares, and the horror of it was so wrapped up in
myth that it was impossible to distinguish the truth.
Draco walked on without fear.
When he had climbed to the mouth of the cave,
he peered
cautiously inside, his wand held rigid in his hand. He had prepared for
this, had spent hours researching and hours training, just in case the
worst should happen.
Inside the mountain, a huge, hulking shape
opened one yellowy eye
and regarded Draco with haughty disdain. It was a dragon. The largest
he had ever seen, and most terrifying. Its head was crowned with a set
of blood red, spiky scales that gave it a most regal air, and continued
all the way along its slender neck. Its wings were folded at its side,
leathery and skeletal, with thin, parchment-coloured webs of skin
stretching over them. Its mouth opened slightly, revealing row upon row
of jagged teeth that looked capable of tearing Draco apart where he
stood.
He froze. Awed.
He had never seen one this big or this
magnificent, and had been
forced to travel to Madagascar just to get a glimpse of one. This was
one of the rarest dragons in the world, and legend told of there only
being three of them left. They were native to this part of the country,
and nocturnal, as a rule, which was why Draco had been able to take
advantage of the beast's sleepiness. He stood silently, just watching,
whilst his heart pounded with the thrill of seeing something he had so
longed for.
The villagers called it the 'Black Terror' and
they refused to
come anywhere near this cave for fear of the monster that dwelled
within. They hadn't seen it in its true glory, even when it wheeled
through the skies on a moonlit night, they were too afraid to look.
They hid themselves and prayed for the morning to come, whenever they
heard its distinctive call. The indris in the baobab trees would
immediately silence, as this lord of the skies grazed the heavens and
swept from its cave down to the world below.
And now it was suffering Draco's presence. And
suddenly Draco
wanted to be anywhere else so badly that he turned around and walked
away, the dragon watching him, one lazy eye opened.
*~*~*~*~*~*
In the next room, Harry was having similar
flashbacks to a life he
couldn't recall living. His own dreams were equally as fragmented and
broken as Draco's own, with nothing making any sense and with no
impression of continuity in them at all. A scene arose in his mind, and
began to unfold itself.
He was no more than nineteen, he couldn't be.
A sick wave of
fear was steadily washing over him, its icy fingers clawing into every
part of his body, making his hands tremble and cold beads of
perspiration seep over his brow.
He was taking unsteady steps along a darkened
corridor, knowing
what he was looking for, knowing that certain death lay behind one of
these many doors. The corridor was magnificent in its opulence, with a
crimson carpet trimmed with gold and with portraits of long-dead
witches and wizards watching him with their ghostly eyes.
Harry wanted something, someone to help him.
The rest of the
Order were outside, battling the impenetrable wards that shrouded the
manor from the outside world, from all but Harry. He had been summoned
there, through no trick or artifice of anyone else, he had been
summoned by his own sense of guilt and determination. He would go and
fulfil the prophecy, either killing Voldemort where he stood or
becoming his latest victim.
It was a stupid thing to do, really. Voldemort
would kill him and
the rest of the world would be open to his domination, with his very
last threat wiped out in a flash of green. The manor had been
surprisingly easy to gain entry into, when one considered the number of
charms and enchantments that protected it from the rest of the Order.
They had realised what Harry had gone to do and they had come to stop
him. But only Harry had been able to get in.
Voldemort knew exactly what Harry intended to
do, and Voldemort exulted in that knowledge.
Chanting. Harry's ears pricked up as the
distinct sounds of
chanting reached them, coming from one of the doors to his right. He
clutched the sword of Gryffindor more tightly in his hand as he kicked
open the first door. It swung wide to reveal and ancient, dusty room
that hadn't been used in years.
Harry moved on. Kicking open the next door he
felt all strength
trickle from him as that same blast of cold fear swamped his body.
Voldemort wasn't there, but Harry was face to
face with forty of
his Death Eaters. Somehow, ironically, the injustice of this struck
Harry harder than anything else. Voldemort didn't even deem him worthy
to be killed by his own hand, he was defying the prophecy and disputing
Harry's magical skill. Harry felt rather affronted by that.
"Mr. Potter," A sneering Death Eater grinned
at him from behind
his white mask. The voice was so familiar and yet elusively so, and a
torrent of nostalgia was stirred in Harry's breast.
Oh God. This was Lucius Malfoy. Draco's father.
"I have come to parley with Voldemort," Harry
said, in the
strongest voice he could muster, "not his minion." The Death Eaters
fanned out behind Lucius, wands raised, killing curses poised on their
lips.
"He has business to attend to," Lucius said.
"He asks if I, personally, would complete his task for him."
"You?"
"Me," Lucius fixed him with a strange look.
"He is busy with the
recruitment of new Death Eaters, and is confident that one of his
newest finds will be very disappointed to hear if you injure his
father."
Father?
"Voldemort has Draco," Harry said with a
strange rasp to his voice.
"Draco has renounced the light and will soon
be returning to us,"
Lucius said with an insane smile, "and he will take his place beside
me."
"Liar!" Harry screamed suddenly. "So you think
that I won't duel
with you for fear of hurting Draco?" Lucius did not respond, but his
twisted smile remained immovable on his face. "Draco wants you dead!"
Harry yelled. "He'll fucking thank me!" With those words he shot the
killing curse at Lucius, who ducked just in time, and threw one of the
lesser Death Eaters in front of him to catch the brunt of it.
"The Dark Lord will have you, Potter," Lucius
said as the man he
had used as a shield slumped to a lifeless heap on the floor, "and I
shall be the one to deliver you to him. First, I must teach you a
lesson, though." He pointed his wand straight at Harry's chest, and
Harry was too slow to dodge.
"Crucio!" The pain erupted through his body
like the stabbing of
a thousand white hot knives. His nerves exploded with the agonising
sensation of being riven with needles and blistered over and over again.
His last thoughts were of Draco, and how he
would never let Lucius get him.
Before the world faded to black.
The fuzzy greyness of his mind returned, and the
same slivers of
memory were swimming before his eyes. It wasn't long before another one
opened itself to him.
Harry was drinking something out of a paper cup. Coffee.
The smell
always reminded him of something, but that something was too painful to
contemplate. Hermione was sitting next to him, talking about something
but Harry wasn't really listening, and just let her voice wash over him.
The park bench they were sitting on overlooked emerald
green lawns
just recovering from the last frosts of the winter. Harry could see his
breath misting before his face and could feel his hands turning numb
from the cold of the early spring morning. The coffee was wonderfully
warming, and Harry rubbed his hands together to encourage circulation
back into them. Hermione might have told him they were going outside
when she came to call that morning. He had dressed insensibly for the
weather, wearing a pair of jeans, a blue t-shirt, a black sweater and a
beanie hat that at least did something to stop his ears freezing off.
"Are you even listening to me, Harry?" Hermione sounded
faintly
annoyed, and tossed her scarf over her shoulder again. Harry looked at
it enviously. "Oh here," she said impatiently, taking it off and
wrapping around his neck in a motherly fashion. "You never did wear
enough clothes."
"Sorry," Harry mumbled, taking another sip of his
rapidly-cooling coffee and dumping it in a nearby bin, "what were you
saying?"
"I was just saying that I think you need a change of
pace," Hermione
said, smoothing his hair down lovingly. "You've been really miserable
these past few weeks, and crap company." Harry let out a short laugh.
"Thanks," he said,
"You know what I mean," Hermione sighed. "I just worry
about you sometimes." Harry patted her hand gently,
"Don't," he said, "I'm fine, I promise."
Hermione suddenly became very interested in examining
her fingernails, and she looked away from Harry, sheepishly.
"I actually have an ulterior motive for dragging you out
here," she said, and Harry grinned.
"I didn't think it would be for the pleasures of my
'crap' company,"
he said. "Come on, spill." Hermione smiled weakly, with a distinct
apprehension.
"I've heard from someone," she said evasively, "someone
who wants to meet us."
"Who?" Harry was instantly curious.
"Well, um..." Hermione stopped, looking at someone over
Harry's shoulder. Harry whirled around and his heart stopped beating.
Draco Malfoy was standing before him.
Holdall slung casually over his shoulder and hands in
his pockets,
he looked the spitting image of the person Harry hadn't seen in five
and a half years. He was older, though, and more developed, with a
slight tan and the air of one who has seen a lot of the world in a very
short time.
"Malfoy?" Harry said disbelievingly. Draco was smiling,
somewhat
hesitantly, at Harry's astonishment before narrowing his eyes
appraisingly.
"Are you wearing a girl's scarf, Potter?" he asked
suddenly and
Harry burst out laughing. Getting to his feet he flung his arms around
Draco's neck, taking the blond completely by surprise.
"I haven't seen you in five years and that's all you've
got to say
for yourself?" Harry asked, his mouth buried in Draco's shoulder. He
felt strong arms close around him, and breath drift over his neck.
"I've missed you so much," Draco said. "You have no
idea." Harry
pulled back and they looked at each other for the briefest of moments,
before Harry dived onto Draco's mouth and they kissed as though they'd
just invented it. The air around him became tinged with the scent of
their passion and the world crumbled into insignificance. All he could
taste was Draco's mouth, all he could hear was Draco's rough breathing,
and all he could feel were Draco's hands running expertly over his body
as they hadn't done in five years.
Draco dropped light kisses on his lips and suddenly his
was kissing
every inch of Draco he could get his hands on. Those angular cheekbones
tasted like honey under his mouth and the feeling of Draco's lips
against his skin sent shivers down his spine.
It wasn't until Hermione pointedly cleared her throat
did they tear
themselves apart and fall back into the comforting embrace they had
shared just minutes before. Harry's head sank onto Draco's shoulder and
he felt the blond kissing his neck softly.
"It's a nice scarf, actually," he heard Draco say.
And Harry woke up. Panting hard, and completely
disoriented, he
tried to come to terms with where he was and why. It wasn't until a few
minutes later that he remembered his bizarre dreams and the vividness
of them. To his undying shame and horror he had a raging hard-on, and,
muttering to himself, retreated blearily into the bathroom to deal with
it in privacy.
The colour of the sky outside convinced him that
it couldn't be much
later than six am, and the flashing clock on the bedside confirmed
that. Harry knew he wouldn't get any more sleep that night, and,
sighing, sprawled himself across the bed, on returning from the
bathroom.
His mind was turning over the various scenes and
images that had
been revealed to it during sleep. They were images of his life, he was
sure, of the life that he had yet to live, and something about their
tantalising fleetingness made Harry hungry for more knowledge.
He wanted to know how he had come to be in that
mansion, being
tortured by Lucius Malfoy whilst the rest of the Order tried to save
him. It was probably the 'hero' complex Draco was so fond of referring
to, and Harry had probably done it in an act of self-sacrifice to save
his friends.
It couldn't have worked, though, considering he
was still alive.
Someone must have saved him, he doubted he could have escaped from so
many Death Eaters on his own.
And the scene of his meeting with Draco after so
many years; what
had happened afterwards? How had Hermione known that Draco would be
there, when he, Harry, had had no idea?
Wondering distractedly if Draco had experienced
similar visions that
night, Harry rubbed his eyes, watching the path traced by the light of
the muggle cars below across his ceiling. Before more than twenty
minutes had passed, Harry was just dozing off again when he heard a
muffled thump coming from the next room and a garbled obscenity.
Grinning slightly, Harry moved to investigate.
His presumptions had
been correct, and Draco had rolled right off the white couch and into a
heap on the floor. He was also looking most displeased about it.
"Oh for fuck's sake," he grumbled, as Harry came
in, "second bad
wake up call of the night." Ignoring him, Harry sat on the couch and
pulled Draco back into his seat, throwing the fur rug around them both.
"Get lonely, Potter?" Draco asked nonchalantly,
yawning widely.
"Er...no," Harry said. "I wanted to ask if you
had any weird dreams
last night." Draco's face looked confused for a moment, before he said,
"I think I did, why?"
"Dunno," Harry looked at his hands, "I had them
too. I think they
were visions of our lives. What did you dream about?" he asked
curiously. Draco reddened slightly,
"Our last...meeting," he said, "before Hogwarts
ended. It was under the stadium at the Quidditch pitch."
"What happened?" Harry asked, a smile quirking his lips.
"You came up behind me," Draco said, his flush
deepening, "and we
talked and decided that whatever we were doing would have to end, and
then we...er..." He coughed and trailed off but Harry caught the gist
of what he was saying. "And I dreamed about when I was studying
dragons," he said with a much stronger voice, "I went to Madagascar,
and- hey! I can speak Malagasy!" His delight was evident by his voice.
"You can? Cool," Harry said. "I hope I can speak
another language. What were the dragons like?"
"Really sleepy," said Draco, trying to remember
everything from his dream. "What did you dream about, then?"
Harry shivered slightly, despite the weight of
the fur rug. "I was
about nineteen or twenty," he said, "and I had gone into this mansion
place to fight Voldemort alone." Draco snorted,
"You would," he said.
"But he wasn't there," Harry continued with
difficulty. "It was...your father." Draco went slightly rigid beside
him.
"My father?" he asked. "Escaped from Azkaban?"
"Apparently so," Harry said.
"What happened next?" Draco asked, as if dreading
the answer.
"He told me you had rejoined the Death Eaters,"
Harry said, "and I
called him a liar. He then tortured me with the Cruciatus curse." He
chanced a look at Draco's face, and noticed he had gone a little paler.
Still, he stared right back at Harry, holding his gaze.
"Oh," was all he said.
"And then it faded," Harry replied.
"I'm sorry," Draco muttered, "that he put you
through that."
"It's not your fault," said Harry, and there was
a stony silence
between them. "Hey," he said, "I also dreamt about our first meeting
after five years."
"Oh yeah?" Draco brightened. "What was it like?"
"Just as Hermione said," Harry chuckled, "very
lustful. Your first words to me were to ask if I was wearing a girl's
scarf."
"Were you?" Draco asked without missing a beat.
"Yes, come to think of it," Harry said, thinking
hard. Draco laughed
softly, a nice sound, and one Harry had rarely heard from him. He knew
every derisive snort and scathing snicker, but this was different, this
was pleasant.
"We must be quite a couple," he said.
"Hmm," Harry replied, pensive.
"I wonder if we'll get these every night," Draco
mused,
"I hope so," said Harry, "it's fascinating to see
what's going to happen to us."
"And supposing we see something we don't want to
see?" Draco said
delicately. Harry fixed him with a probing look for a moment before
sighing again,
"Life isn't perfect," he said, and settled back
against the plush
comfort of the sofa. Draco stayed where he was for a minute before
settling back as well, drawing the fur throw closer around him.
There was an hour or two of peaceful silence
wherein Harry dozed
quietly, falling in and out of a shallow sleep that seemed beyond him.
He woke to find himself enjoying a face-full of someone else's skin. As
most of his senses returned he realised he had fallen asleep with his
head against Draco's shoulder and his face was now nestled next to the
man's collarbones. Harry could smell his skin, and feel the smooth
hollows of Draco's shoulders beneath his chin. He could see his Adam's
apple bobbing beneath his jaw, and wondered why on earth Draco had
allowed this touch. That soon became clear when Draco mumbled something
in his sleep and woke himself up.
"What?" he said blurrily.
"Hmm?" Harry asked, ridding himself of sleep.
"Potter," Draco said, in a voice laden with
fatigue, "why are you sleeping on me?"
"You're comfortable," Harry said without
thinking, wanting to go
back to sleep but understanding that it was probably not on the cards
right now.
"Uh-huh," he could tell Draco wasn't listening to
him.
"What are you two sleeping in here for?" Ginny's
voice came from the
doorway. Harry and Draco had forgotten that she was staying, and she
looked very ruffled, as though she had just woken up.
"Er-" Harry began.
"If I'd known the bed was free, I wouldn't have
slept on the floor," she said, looking faintly put out.
"Sorry," Harry said at once.
"Anyone hungry?" Hermione's voice rang from the
kitchen area and Harry felt Draco immediately perk up.
"Me!" He called. "What time is it?" he asked
Harry.
"'Bout eight thirty," Harry said, uncurling
himself reluctantly,
standing up and stretching. His muscles rippled appealingly as he
moved, laid under acre after acre of soft, tanned skin.
Draco looked pointedly in the other direction.
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